My life was defined by a series of bad choices—choices that were rooted in emotional and sexual abuse, abandonment, rejection, and fear. Now, this is not to say there hasn’t been happiness in my life. There has! I have been abundantly blessed and have so much to be thankful for. Yet, underneath the gratitude, beneath the smiles, was ME—unworthy, self-sabotaging ME.
The way of fear has always been my go-to when it came to making choices. Fear is comfortable and much less vulnerable! Choices I have made landed me in two emotionally abusive marriages—one right after the other. Choices I’ve made landed me in a mental health hospital for severe depression and suicidal ideation. It didn’t help. Just one year later, I was entertaining thoughts of suicide again. I managed to mask the pain as best as I could, and somehow managed to simply exist, all the while being silently tormented by my guilt and failure. I loathed myself and accepted this existence fully believing I didn’t deserve any better. I was just not good enough.
Eventually, I started seeing a counselor. I found enough energy to get off of the couch, and I started hiking. I live in Tucson—there is so much beauty to be experienced here! My sense of well-being was improving, and the light at the end of the tunnel didn’t seem so elusive. Still, in the deep recesses of my brain sat the unrelenting belief of unworthiness. I carried the shame of my past in the pit of my stomach. I did not know how to work through it. Fear still reigned. I stopped listening to my intuition long ago and really couldn’t even hear her voice anymore. Another bad decision was surely in my future.
Enter Mandy Morris and the 30 Day Authentic Creation Program. It simply appeared on my Facebook feed one day! VERY shortly after beginning that journey, I realized: I CREATED IT ALL! The mess, the heartache, the shame… Surely, if I created my way IN, I could create my way OUT, right? But, how?
One consciously-living glorious day at a time.
It is difficult, gut wrenching work beginning the process of unpacking years of numbed out emotion and warped belief systems that drive a person into repeated patterns of inauthentic living. It is exhausting work. It is courageous work. It is freeing and exhilarating work! It is because my life was so quickly and dramatically changed that I have dedicated my heart to the service of YOU.
As a Certified Love & Authenticity Coach, and a student at the University of Sedona on track for a PhD in Holistic Coaching, I am committed to helping my clients learn how thoughts, energy, and intention affect EVERYTHING. Every. Thing. I will guide you and help you learn how to be present and live consciously so you can face your fears and re-write beliefs that have only served to weigh you down. I will help you to not only learn the tools you need but to also incorporate these tools into living a life of soul-knowing worthiness and self-love. I will help you re-awaken your self-silenced intuition and, with joy, watch as you rediscover the most beautiful and authentic YOU that you were born to be!